unixslut (unixslut) wrote in dosomethingclub,

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What have I done for ME lately?

Well, i haven't exercised much since my illness, other than stepping on the elliptical a couple of times. i've been letting the excuses pile up. i feel awful for it, but i was doing it. i decided that i don't want to let the weight loss of my illness go to waste.

i'm pagan. My group did a ritual last night, and one of the things we did was bless all the seeds that we'll be planting in the spring. Some of them will be started indoors as little as two weeks from now. i asked my group to sacrifice something important to them, but which was ultimately not good, as a way of "giving energy" to the seeds. i chose to give up all my excuses for not exercising. For one month, i am religiously and spiritually bound to not have any excuses. So i got on the elliptical today. It was only 15 minutes, but it wasn't excuses.

i also did something else. Having watched the Dannon yoghurt commercial with the "itsy bitsy teeny weenie yellow polka-dot bikini" about 80 times a day, i decided to pull out something that i really want to wear. i am officiating at one of my group members' wedding in June. Two years ago, sis bought me a dress, a Rennaisance gown in deep blue, and it was tight when i got it, and instead of losing weight, i gained. i know i need to get below 180 to wear it. i'm 195 now. i have basically three months to lose it. With 8 lbs a month as a respectable and yet healthy weight loss, i would be down to about 175 lbs. i could fit, at 175. So ... i hung the dress up on my closet door, on the outside. i'll have to look at it every day, several times a day. There's my short term goal for the next little while.

That's what i've done for me...
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Go you!! Thats great!
Sometimes we need outside commitments to keep us bound to doing something. I've done that before...

Once when I wanted to do something, I had little pieces of paper with notes written all over them to myself EVERYWHERE. I'd find them in the strangest places, stacked up with other stuff, stuck to the wall, on the fridge, in the bathroom, everywhere. I put them in places where I couldn't miss them to remind myself of it.

I haven't done much lately. I am becoming more and more aware of what I need to do though, so I think the damn is going to burst some time soon. I finally have the correct referral to see an orthopedist about my back. Hopefully I'll get what I want out of it, and can start therapy soon. I know thats the only way I am going to become secure in my body right now. I have uneven weakness due to a lot of surergy as a child. I want to get rid of that. I'm beginning to do more work with horses, and that is going to get in my way in the long run, so I want to get rid of it. I don't know how far I'll get, but I want to get further than I am now! I'm tired of being imbalanced...
We'll see what happens.

In the mean time, I can't wait to hear more about what you're doing! The encouragement is what we all need!